I was induced by your love
Seduced by Poison, conquered my defeat
Questioning why I wasn’t being chosen
I realized your lies so often
No consideration
The hurt obtained
Left behind so much pain
How could you be so vain?
Said that you loved me but it was never self proclaimed
Respect and faithfulness went hand in hand
So who was that lady who left her earrings on your night stand?
Didn’t call last night,
didn’t seem like it was worth the try
I’ve tried to convince myself a thousand times
that’s it should be you who’s on my mind
burying my shame with endless days
work and books
trying to pave my way
that will let me see the day
where I can finally feel the same
the truth is, i needed someone before you
adaptation
events occur and reactions follow
when he left i felt so hollow
lessons learned and held my head high
defeat is only a loss when you’ve let it subside
reality is, I needed that love to survive, in order to live
my drug to my addiction
and yet, here i am… unable to want that love you give.
oh how long those days seemed,
like the color of turmeric,
an amber flared sun, waiting to fall
ready for it’s demise, defeat and unfortunate glory
awaiting the moon to rise
pillows wet with tears of yesterday
when it was us every day
fought through winds and storms
the currents swaying us different ways
the stars couldn’t guide us
how were we so wrong?
The night became my savior
peaking through the depths of the unsaid
the darkness embracing my solace
traversing every crack of my heart
the unknown place…
it no longer beat the same
it was broken in every way.
Loren writes 